ok while i was waiting for laundry i added some more stuff to the #ryudov2 repository, we're approaching a usable system here. can't wait till i get some time to get it all wired up and test this end to end

dz: hrt boob stuff

3 years into HRT my boobs are still like, regularly flaring up in growth phases and being like "hi hello we're here wouldn't it feel nice if somebody touched us" when i'm trying to focus on things @_@

1 week till the lease is up
5 weeks till my termination at the co op
7 weeks till i hit the road

ugh i cleared out a bunch of stuff from the house and while i was at the thrift store i picked up a couple nice bags (a canvas duffel and a backpack) to upgrade the storage modules that were a bit too limiting

tomorrow i clean the bathroom and kitchen really well

but tonight! blade or die!!

chile seasonnnnn

i got a mushroom and green chile pizza from Bruja's last night and the green chile was so on point. reheating the leftovers now and whooo baby thats some good chile!

RE https://cafe.nilfm.cc/u/nilix/h/Kqp151s25bW1MjWPRP

#np in #theStudio
Miseration - Blueprinted Aeon Collapse
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=YdsXFpy6XDM

uxn affirmations

Your stacks are not leaking
You didn't mix up INC and INC2
You made sure to flip your conditions before refactoring code into a conditional lambda
You cleaned up the return stack before using JMP2r
You are not passing variables on the stack between vector calls
You're using relative pointers imminently after pushing them onto the stack
You are having fun

wondering why my mobile data is literally dial up speeds since yesterday

check space weather

oh yeah an M-class flare yesterday, checks out

9 days left before the lease is up - have a schedule for taking advantage of days off work to do the really annoying stuff...

it feels like i JUST did this... the past year went by so fast T-T

hardstyle and noodle :>

ok big progress over half the furniture has been extricated from the house. of the remainder, the big and heavy items are just the futon frame and the 2 cabinets in the spare room... might at least make a run with the cabinets later today after i take some downtime

when u talking about fried wheat gluten but ppl think youre talking about The Enemy

today i bring the g wagon to get the hydraulics in the braking system some needed TLC.

oh shit i can't believe i've never sung Prism and Gate at work

if the stuff in this thread https://cafe.nilfm.cc/u/nilix/h/VqD2Kg53t46Q2V241Z sounds cool to you please consider donating to my studio so i can pivot from wage slavery to full time artistry sooner than later. i live in a van now so my expenses are light and my goals are feasible

https://lightcrystal.systems/support

JCVI-syn3A, a synthetic cell with 493 genes (452 protein-coding; 41 RNA), is the simplest free living organism known. ~80% of the protein-coding genes are functionally annotated, but we still don’t know what the other 20% do (except that removing any of them makes it unviable). There’s also a whole-cell kinetic model for ~98% of the enzymatic reactions in the cell.

This is the real frontier of artificial life, not masses of linear algebra over a text model…

when the technical debt comes due, immediately

RE: https://cafe.nilfm.cc/u/nilix/h/8Q928sc6DF22T4W3H2

RIP tedu

they still doing weird shit with mastodon

we still out here

the #ryudov2 skel is almost there, i think i just need mimetypes and xdg user dirs?

My common rainbow seed-beaaring iris has been harvested!
#botany #tildeclub

mmmm uninitialized VRAM

why does cumming (as a tgirl) have like 4 different quick time events you have to pass?

The Things We Must Set Free Again And Again
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https://helveticablanc.com/20260818-the-things-we-must-set-free-again-and-again.html
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#helveticablanc
#wormsong
#worm
#sigil

"The season of the Smoke Moon drifts from Tiliard’s roots upward. It rises from the shores of the Catoptric, the pipework of rhizomes and limestone where falling pebbles spark like flint in the reeds. Green witch-flames burp to life on the water’s surface, both guideposts and hazards to passing riverboats. A blanket of black cloud rolls in from the fields as farmers light the harvest’s detritus."

-- The Works of Vermin

other "tech nerds': oh this new model is so cool, it gives such great results!
me: if i cant run it on 15 y/o hardware with 8GB of vram its just exploitationware

RE: https://kolektiva.social/@nogodsnomasters/117114761590039464

yesterday a fellow ex tech worker came up to me at the cafe while i was working on ryudov2 and we started chatting, and we shared this kind of feeling that you have to identify oppression in your life directly and be open enough to the risks to say "fuck no"

i had the additional observation that as someone who had a meteoric rise in my career, transitioned, and then went into poverty while the world falls apart around me, i have a very different relationship to risk, truth, and fulfillment than most, and for example working at the co op i see people of all ages just accepting the oppression of these low wages and gruelling hours while management gets a living wage and plenty of time off and nobody even THINKS to hold the board accountable- i suggested a strike one time and they thought i was joking...