been reading BLAME! on my reMarkable 2. this is what eInk was made for

ughhggg needed me some eep

a little rambling for my mental health | https://nilfm.cc/get_the_picture.html

#unix_surrealism

I woke up with an idea for a book, I wrote down the first page.

An ultratourmaline light is ever present but for the luminescent ripple awakened by a wave breaking, the spark from two rocks colliding or the storms igniting the crests of dunes; but here, nothing natural grows with eyes to see it. Eyes came from elsewhere.

Shielded from the winds above, invisible but to the darkness, Den Azar kneels onto the wet fiberglass, bend over the feroplastic membrane, bite at the loose shale and succulent cables; masticates, voraciously, my precious fabric before sinking into a satiated sleep.

The blizzard accumulates in small mounds of ash around her ceramic legs and pools in the recesses of her closing golden eyes.

The storm blows itself out, glass, the ocean reflects nothing back. A million sunflowers at the bottom of the Abyss stir.

Den Azar kicks at suffocating miasma, it liquefies, a metallic arc lights up the night. A sunflower notices and immediately looses interest. He swims through the lye, caustic, immaterial, wormlike toward the surface. Two iridescent florets of gold bloom.

"Hummingbirds?"

so i've got a couple pupils and a little webdev project rn but i'm still very much living off of my savings and trying to bootstrap things here;

if you like my open source work and can spare a few bucks for my livelihood i would very much appreciate a donation

alternatively if you're in need of a sofware/web designer/developer or tech educator (see my CV and my consultancy) DM, email, or message me on signal per your preference; i'd love to see if we can work together :>

it should go without saying i do not use genAI in any of my work

#openSource #fediHire #mutualAid #noGenAI

dollctl v0.1.0: we have the technology | https://nilfm.cc/dollctl.html

prediction markets' depravity economy is the culmination of deregulation and kleptocracy, lobbying to legalize sports gambling, the collapse of advertising markets, hustlebro culture, crypto, memestocks, ai bubble ... venn diagram of horrible: www.404media.co/with-iran-wa...

With Iran War, Kalshi and Poly...

for xnfm's fifth birthday and partially inspired by some posts going around lately I decided to write something reflecting on my history thus far with hosting xnfm, its entanglements with the conditions of the world today as well as my own life, and where things may go from here:

https://unlife.nyx.land/posts/close-this-world.html

my #dollctl presentation at #redfish is up!

I've made significant changes to service management and pipeline execution WRT privilege de-escalation and made the forms a bit nicer to look at since this was recorded but other than that i'm happy to share this with yall

https://us02web.zoom.us/rec/play/Fy4vr8J3a-VvXG1OKbYI3GpLwZdGFE5rDumVEoQr7XXiSK9bIqKw1jZArMnSCHxBascCgv0pEY4kOavA.L7fROjrDX9ishOqd

wish people would cherish one another instead of killing each other :<

Its been a while since I created a mix on the Pacemaker device, but a recent trip to Budapest gave me some time to try out a few new tunes on the old #pacemakerdevice

I present the Budapest influenced : The shadow of concrete ruins mix.

Turn it up!

https://cubicgarden.com/2026/02/26/the-shadow-of-concrete-ruins-mix/

#Trans folx in #Kansas given 1 day to surrender their (now invalid) IDs and driver's licenses to the state. As of tomorrow (Thursday), driving while trans is a class-B misdemeanor ($1000 fine and up to 6 months in jail).

The zero-grace-period execution means driving to turn in your license is a crime.

Oh yeah, this bill also enacted a bathroom bounty program allowing private individuals to sue trans folx for using the restroom.

https://www.erininthemorning.com/p/kansas-sends-letters-to-trans-people

https://www.erininthemorning.com/p/kansas-advancing-anti-trans-bill

#AntiTrans #Authoritarianism #FuckTrump #FuckRepublicans #ProtectTransFolx

New blog post: Why "digital sovereignty" requires a free software alternative to Android and iOS, and how we're building towards that 🏗️

https://modal.cx/blog/sovereign-mobile-stack

today i will migrate the last server and build some cronjobs

#dollctl is pretty much ready. i've got my network 80% migrated.

• service supervision and versioning
• pipelines for testing, building, and deploying code, including private artifactories
• data management including on-demand snapshots and streaming
• straightforward virtual machine management
• structured logging

https://forge.lightcrystal.systems/nilix/dollctl

time to migrate another node

eepy =w= but i will slay i promise

oh yeah, i got a web design client :> things are happening!

performing some maintenance, so the lightcrystal forge will be down for maybe half an hour?

2025 photojournal complete | https://nilfm.cc/photojournal.html

i finally found a coloration method that really works for me. colored this #selfPortrait from a couple months ago!

i didnt really plan my lesson for today. my brain says keep going with html but my heart says just teach him uxn ><

i will present a few options and ask what he wants to do today i guess

https://keepandroidopen.org/

dogfooding #dollctl on zircon (this host) now; it was largely painless.

next on my list is setting up the forge's networking properly so it can reach the other instances and then i can set up some nice pipelines for automation, and i have a couple ideas for cmdline dollctl clients of various shapes.

the wind is crazy and it's been hailing on and off, a good day to stay cozy at the desk with some tea :>

#honkers ; does anybody know what happened to Ted?

Also does anybody have an up-to-date clone of honk? it appears the version i'm running is newer than the version i have the source for and the wayback machine doesn't have consistent snapshots of the source :<

#dollctl is getting very close to useable

gave a presentation today and it was well received! recording will be available eventually.

latest updates:

• VM module is working well. virtual disks, NICs, and CDs are managed along with the VMs that use them in a streamlined declarative way; resources can't be destroyed or changed while a VM is using them
• service management and CICD pipelines have been debugged and Deployment steps can seamlessly deploy and restart a service
• services now support an optional user, group, and custom environment variables
• pipeline Test and Build steps now run in a shell for more flexibility

spent all day yeterday testing and debugging the VM module of #dollctl. it can now create and destroy virtual resources and run/shutdown VMs through the web API. today i will test other configs (more disks, different network setup, etc) and switch gears back to web client #sigil

proteus has been upgraded!

• / is the same, on a 250G SSD
• /home is now a zpool (zhomeng) on a 1T SSD
• zhomeng/pso2 is a case-insensitive zfs filesystem mounted on ~/lib/pso2 where PSO2 is installed

and now that i'm not using a hybrid drive setup proteus's third (120G) SSD which used to be the hybrid drive's cache layer is used for swap (not that i really ever need it but just in case)

tired: servermaid
wired: mistress of the network

Loving the reshares and words of support but sadly it'd be nice to make progress on our fundraiser sooner rather than later so we can de-stress.

Lately I've got the tiny human 50/50 after the courts threw out my counterparts false claims now THREE times.

I've been facing a ton of online and in-person harassment from my ex's mob of vigilantes, cops & courts have had to be involved and the legal situation is rather active.

$125 / $2000

Casapp/venmo/paypal $nullagent
#ParentingWhileBlack

Currently looking for a new employment (remote and EU only), thought to try to get #fedihired as well.
Most of my ~20 year experience I dealt with either very low-level kernel/user-level (often embedded) C+asm or distributed backend (Go, Erlang, Java).
I would love to prioritize the former and not opposed to learning something new at this point.

CV: https://ftrv.se/_/cv.pdf
A bunch of code: https://git.sr.ht/~ft/

"None of these alternatives are as polished as the big corporate platform that's doing shady things!"

Yeah, buddy. You'll never get free if you cling to polish. Embrace the scruffynet.

These two images are the entire story of open source software support in this world, in a nutshell.

Exhibit one is the list of companies who are sponsoring the Linux Foundation, a murderer's row of the largest and most powerful hosting and services companies in the world.

Exhibit two is one dude scrambling to keep the lights on after a raid failure because KTLO for the servers that everyone uses to _download Linux_ are "outside the scope" of the Linux Foundation's "main duties".

ok i switched icon themes from Material Solarized Suru to Commonality and it's both chunky and cute, goes very hard :3

Hot take: looking for a single silver-bullet Discord replacement is solving the wrong problem. Corporate power has pushed us towards everything-apps, but it's OK for the tool you use to communicate with other users of an open source project to look different from the tool you use to text your spouse and the tool you use to run voice chats with your gaming guilds.

so, it reduces the immediacy of seeing and editing the schedule via the API directly but i think im gonna not implement the cron module in dollctl cause you can just do the same stuff with a service... less is more?

so i have confirmed that clothespins + a steamy bathroom works well for refreshing knife pleats; the moar u know

Go 1.26 is out, and the announcement says:

"Over the next few weeks, follow-up blog posts will cover some of the topics in more detail. Check back later."

So you can wait a few weeks OR you can read my interactive Go 1.26 tour right away:

https://antonz.org/go-1-26

#quartzgun's rateLimiter and middleware packages received a breaking update in v0.6.0, as I standardized the RateLimiter interface (along with of course fixing the implementations).

projects will have to be slightly updated to build with v0.6 and higher ><

#dollctl pipelines have been debugged and confirmed working, and #sigil has been cleaned and refined now with proper roles and aria-live attributes on a bunch of the UI and the affordance that any non-button that is clickable uses the accent color so it looks like a link ^^

i've been on that underground techno grind for the past 24 hours and it's very healing

another centralized service: goes down
me: sips coffee

low key need me that SGI espresso maker

the steam machine reminds me a lot of those purpose built high end unix workstaitons in the 90s

low key forgot about luakit; qutebrowser but it's not python, i'm here for it

my downtime today consisted of reading some plan9 papers, i think i need help lol

The blog post is written and published.

Sysadmin In The LLM Age

"You cannot vibe code your way into becoming a better sysadmin. Or better anything else for that matter."

https://nullrouted.space/2026/02/05/sysadmin-in-the-llm-age/

Boosts on this post are appreciated, thank you.

#sysadmin

Most Americans don't realize exactly how wrapped up in the war machine their lives are.

Have a 401k? What do you think is creating those returns? Fossil fuels, prisons, defense contractors, weapons, surveillance software.

Oh you divested from those? Well your bank didn't.

The major tech platforms you use are data brokers selling location information on immigrants and dissidents, funding surveillance marketed as "smart cities", and vying for DoD contracts.

Capitalism means complicity.

tax return

#openbsd #technomage #unix_surrealism #comic #art #fediart

static site generator formats (cursedness tier list)

- html
- markdown
- org files
- S-expressions
- nroff
- LaTeX
- postscript

today i mail my cursed windows machine back from whence it came

i suppose to clarify a point from an earlier conversation that might have been confusing or seemded contradictory (ie, understanding vs knowledge):

most Americans are aware that there is rot in our society; many are even aware of the twisted history of this place; but few even dare to consider that there has been and continues to be a nexus of pure evil that drives this history forward with all its might. even many of those who are aware of it, do not have a full or even realistic picture of what it is, how it propagates and maintains power, and how to fight it.

does this mean, as an example, the baby anarchist you meet on the street but is still stuck to Meta platforms is a bigot? fuck no; it means they still have a lot to learn; knowing who your enemy is is only the first step; effectively fighting this spiritual battle is a life-long practice